Tuesday, July 28, 2009


that word is all I can think about tonight as I reflect
on the past week of my life.

what has changed you might ask?

my body.
i have several stretch marks below my belly button.
i have boobs filled with milk for my baby boy.
i finally have skinny ankles and narrow feet again.
i have stitches to remind me of the hard work it took to get Rowan here.
i have some extra jiggly belly fat that i didn't have before.
i have three pounds of extra weight left to lose.

my mind.
one step ahead.
more organized than before.
focused on Rowan's needs over my own.
blurred as I constantly re-live the moments leading up to Rowan's birth
and the few days after that.
amazed that I birthed such a beautiful baby.
boggled that I could love something so much.
thankful to God for our child.
in awe of how the love for my husband and my God have grown.

my heart.
so full...of love, joy, pride, and absolute awe.
of full of love for my family, friends, husband, and Lord.
humbled as I realize how much my parents love me.
renewed and refreshed as I realize how much my God loves me.
overflowing with love for my baby boy.

I never imagined motherhood would feel the way it does.
How it would change me.
I just thought it would change life in general...
my routine,
my comings and goings,
my schedule,
but instead it has changed me.

If you will remember with me that
Rowan was a surprise to me and Alan.
Not a surprise to God.
He knows what we need,
when we need it,
and exactly how we need it.
What a wonderful surprise!
Thank you Lord!

I feel so overwhelmingly blessed that
God has allowed me to be Rowan's momma.

For I am changed.

I will never be the same.

Monday, July 20, 2009

the BIG day...

is finally here.

It feels very surreal, knowing that in a matter of
hours I will have a new title.

MOM. Momma. Mother. Mommy.

The next time I blog I will be sharing with you
pictures of my precious, God-given, blessing.

Our Rowan.

I got some decent sleep.
Up every hour. But that's nothing new.
I feel much calmer and more at peace today than yesterday.
I wasn't much short of a basketcase yesterday. :/

Pray with us today that everything
will go smoothly as we welcome our son into this world.

What an amazing adventure this has been!

What an amazing adventure this will be!

What an amazing opportunity to bring life into this world!

We are so blessed!

Sunday, July 19, 2009


is the big day I suppose...
that is if Rowan doesn't decide
to surprise us tonight.

We are being induced.

I have known since Thursday morning
about our induction, but I was hoping
that our little man would come on his own before then.
That's why I haven't mentioned it.

I am nervous, anxious, excited, overwhelmed...and the list
goes on. I just hope we are doing the right thing.

I am so ready to lay my eyes upon our beautiful baby boy!

Please be in prayer for us.
For good sleep tonight.
For a smooth, not difficult labor process.
For a healthy baby boy.

We can't wait to share pictures of him!

We just cleaned the entire apartment.
My family is on their way.
Alan and I are going out to eat.
Our last meal before Rowan.

I suppose things will never be the same!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

hanging out...

waiting for Rowan.

Alan let me sleep till 11:20.
12 hours of sleep is a beautiful thing for anyone,
but especially a very round and ripe pregnant woman.

Got up, and showered.
Headed to Lowes,
then to the mall to "walk him out".
Chick-fil-a for lunch. Yum-Yum.
Then to Kroger for a few groceries.
Back home.
Nap time.
Alan went and got me a watermelon and some
boiled peanuts while I was asleep.
Two of my favorite things!

Up from my nap...
Fixed the front of Rowan's baby book.
As you can see from the picture there is a
square opening for a picture.
However since Rowan is not here yet...
I made a light blue monogram to put in there.
And I may just leave it!
It looks precious!
And about that baby book, I promise
myself to keep up with that thing.
My momma didn't fill mine out because
she said her handwriting wasn't good.
But I refuse. I want it filled to the brim.
Rowan's future wife (gasp) just may be interested
in it or perhaps Rowan himself.

My older sister Paige and I were talking on the phone

last night. (surprise). She told me 2 funny stories.

One involves my youngest nephew Cade, TLC's Baby Story, and sleep.

Of course there has been alot of talk about babies around their house.

But my sister wanted him to watch A Baby Story with her.

So they watched it the other day.

He saw the lady pushing and pushing until the baby came out.

(Of course nothing grusome was shown and he already knows

girls have a special opening for babies to be born.

He learned this earlier this year when their dog Chloe had puppies.

He just hasn't asked how the baby got there yet. :) )

Well, that night my sister went to bed at 8:30.

Cade kept coming in her room saying he couldn't fall asleep.

The next day he said "Mom, the reason I couldn't fall asleep was

because I was worried about Hollie having Rowan."

We thought it was both cute and sweet.

The other funny story is a comment my brother-in-law

made to my sister. He told her that I have her in prison. Haha.

She really hasn't been going anywhere, (which is not like

my sister at all) and their bags

have been packed for about a week now.

Everyone is on standby, just waiting for the call that Rowan is on his way.

So, I am her "warden" and she has to frequently call and check in with me.

Well, that's all I have for now.

Friday, July 17, 2009

just plain miserable...

it's 7:19 a.m.
I'm wide awake.
Layed down on the couch at 3:00.
Serious itching all over.
Can't get comfortable.
Still up at 3:30.
Hot then cold.
Still up at 4:00.
Up to the bathroom at 5:33.
Alan will be up soon.
Up at 6:30.
Hear Alan in the shower.
Stomach killing me.
Back to the bathroom.
Still itching.
Trying not to be frustrated.
Trying not to complain.
But I'm exhausted.
Should have taken Benadryl.
Should have skipped my naps yesterday.
I'm just plain miserable.

Maybe today will be the day!

July 17th.

39 weeks and 1 day.

While I was awake last night I straightened the apt.
Washed a load of clothes.
Painted my fingernails.
Watched HGTV.
Started filling out Rowan's baby book. All my parts are complete.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Six things that make me happy...

I was tagged by Elizabeth...

Elizabeth and I met when I moved to San Antonio, Texas. We
were in 8th grade. After 8th grade we went to different high schools
and she became friends with my good friend, Laura.
So, we kinda keep in touch through Laura.
Then came facebook...and now blogging.
She is the wife to a smart guy, momma to 2 precious
kiddos, she is crafty and likes to cook, and she is a Christian!
I read her blog almost everyday!

So anyways, here are my 6 things that make me happy...

1. Knowing that I will soon have a precious little
boy in my arms. Period.
Can't wait to see him, kiss him, smell him,
hold him, cuddle him, get to know him...etc!

2. Baking. I enjoy making sweets for my
people to eat. I love trying new recipes.
I love wearing out good recipes.
For me it's my labor of love!

3. School supplies. I love
notebooks, journals, binders, markers,
Sharpies, pens, post-it notes and all that good stuff.
When I see Target and Wal-mart putting
their Back-to-school displays up, I can
hardly wait to see what cute things they have out
for the year!

4. Clean sheets. Clean dishes. Clean house.
I love everything to be clean actually.
It really puts me at ease when my surroundings
are neat, straightened, and clean.
Sometimes this gets the worst of me. :(

5. Mail. I love getting snail mail.
(Thanks Sarah T. for the card I recieved today.)
I love getting e-mail.
I love blog comments.
Especially out of the blue.
I try to be a good mail sender, but
lately I have been slacking.

6. Blogging. It's therapy for me.
It's a creative outlet.
It's a way to keep in touch.
2.5 years and going strong!

We are officially 39 weeks...very close to 39 weeks
and 1 day.
Rowan must be very cozy...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

baking today...

So, today I promised myself I would do something I really
enjoy. Forget ironing, laundry, vacuuming etc...well, I did all that
too. But, this morning I made the M&M pretzel treats.
It was my first time making them.
Now I think I am hooked.
If you want directions let me know.

Then this afternoon I made cupcakes.
White cupcakes with chocolate icing
and an M&M on top!

Alan has been enjoying them both since he got home!

I have been having lots of cramping,
abdominal pain, and back pain this afternoon.
I layed down to rest and ended up falling asleep
for a couple of hours.
Hopefully this means my body is preparing
even more for Rowan's arrival!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

still here...still pregnant!

38 weeks, 5.75 days.
Our doctors appointment went well today!
We learned I am 3 cm dilated and 70% effaced.
Dr. Carlton predicts we will have a baby in the next 2-3 days!
I realize he is not God and doesn't truly know when
Rowan will arrive, but he does see very pregnant women every day!
I hope his prediction is right!

Our bags are packed.
Rowan's bag is packed.
The carseat is in the car.
The "He's here!" goodies I made are complete. (pictures later)
The wreath for the hospital door is finished. (pictures later)
Birth announcement envelopes are addressed.
Birth announcements are picked out. (pictures later)
The camera and video camera batteries are charged.
The iPod has relaxing music loaded on it.

We are READY!

I have had a hard time sleeping for about the last week.
I fixed that last night, and plan to do the same tonight.
I took Benadryl 50 mg, took a hot shower, took a Zantac, and
I slept a whopping 9.5 hours.
It was so good to sleep!
The doctor encouraged me to do the same thing every night until he comes!

At 1:00, 2:00, 3:00 and 4:00 a.m. I was woken up by
contractions. I layed there for a few minutes thinking
"Is this it?", "Should I wake him up?", "Should I call the doctor?"...
But, then I drifted off to sleep.
At one point I woke Alan up and told him I was having contractions,
and asked him what I should do... He mumbled,
"if they get stronger and closer together, I'll take you to the hospital".
Well, duh.
The boy is tired, what can I say.
We laughed about it this morning!

Well, it's getting late, it's Benadryl time. Night Night!

I'll keep y'all posted!

Thursday, July 9, 2009

house still for sale...

Alan took this picture of our house the day
after we moved out.

I miss our little house!

We have a couple coming to look for the second time
this weekend.
They are bringing their parents with them to look.

We are praying these are the ONES!

where to start?

First of all I gotta say thank you to my sweet hubby
for getting the internet for us!
I didn't even beg or complain about not having it...
ok maybe once or twice, but not relentlessly.
With all of my family out of town, and lots of friends spread
out across the U.S. I have felt a little disconnected without
the world wide web.
We got a great deal, and so far it's pretty fast!

Ok, now for details about this pregnancy.
We are really ready for our little boy to arrive.
Today marks 38 weeks! I can't believe it.
I remember thinking July seems so far away.

On the morning of June 30th, while at work,
we checked my blood pressure. It was 135/99.
My nurse/tech friends were worried about me.
I guess I looked horrible because everyone was
looking at me like "aww...you poor thing".
My feet have been swelling for months now, but
this day they were "thankles".
As big around as my thighs...and if you have
seen my thighs lately...YIKES!
I already had a drs. appointment scheduled for
the next day.
They were telling me I probably wouldn't be back to work.
I was telling them they were probably wrong. :)

So we go to the doctor the afternoon of July 1st.
My blood pressure is 130 something over 80 something.
I have protein in my urine.
I have swollen ankles and legs.
I feel like a doo-doo sandwich. (Sorry).
I am dilated 1 cm, 50% effaced.

And guess what...I'm taken out of work.

He doesn't put me on bedrest just tells me to
rest, rest, rest, drink lots of clear liquids, take short walks,
and take it easy.
He tells me that if things aren't any different next week
we might need to intervene...or induce either on the 8th or 9th.

Well, I go back to the doctor on Monday.
My blood pressure is normal.
He doesn't mention anything about protein in my urine.
Minimal swelling.
I feel much better.
No change in dilation or effacement.

So, we have an appointment next Tuesday
and we will go from there.
I don't really want to be induced, but
I can't help but think about the maternity leave
that is passing by.
I'd rather let things progess normally as
God designed.
So, maybe I will just go in to labor on my own.
That's what we are praying for.

We have Rowan's room ready.
Alan is working on one more accent for his room.
It is very close to being finished.
I need to take and post pictures here soon.
We were blessed to get everything we need
for Rowan at baby showers.
Just waiting on him.