Friday, October 30, 2009

Happy Pumpkin Day!

Yes, I did it. I made Halloween cards! :)
Since most of our friends and family live out of town
and won't be able to see Rowan in his cute little
giraffe costume I figured Halloween cards
would be perfect.

Have a great weekend...


Happy Pumpkin Day!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

gettin the hang of it.

He only cried 3 minutes tonight...and hasn't woken up yet.


I'm off to bed!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009




Sweet boy slept from 8-5!!!

I was totally scared to go check on him this morning.

We are listening to him cry right now.
It isn't as easy today because I worked...
and I haven't spent much time with him.
I so want to go scoop him up and squeeze him.


I can do this!
Consistency is key!

And thanks so much for the sweet, encouraging words!
A lurker even came out of hiding...Hi Paula!

Just thought I would blog it!
One, to remember this day.
And two, to keep me busy for a while...

And oh, this precious face.
He is truly "eat-able", as my dad says!

Monday, October 26, 2009

sleep or the lack of...

well, i haven't really written much about my
experiences as a mother. today i was thinking back
over Rowan's short life and feeling like i need to be
documenting more.

mom always says "you're gonna miss this" and
"it won't be like this for long".

and well...she is right.

so, Rowan, my beautiful baby boy,
drives me crazy

and this is why...

last night for example.

he fell asleep in my arms at 8:00.
i layed him down in his crib at 9:00.
at 10:00 he woke up.
he was awake till 11:00.
then up at 12:45.
then back down till 3:00.
then up at 5:00.
then up at 7:00.
then up for good at 8:00.

i'm exhausted people.

so today we started "crying it out".
before today i have thought it was awfully cruel
for a mother to let her child cry.
especially for 45 minutes.
well, that was awfully judgmental of me.
sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do.

so i noticed him rubbing his eyes and acting sleepy
around 11:15. i layed him down in his crib.
He cried until 12:10 then fell asleep.
He slept for 25 minutes.

The again around 2:00 he looked sleepy again.
He cried until 2:25. Then slept for 25 minutes.

Then this evening he cried for 13 minutes when i layed
him down. And he slept...i don't know how long.
Not enough time for me to finish the corn chowder
i was making.

Tonight after his bath and lotion and pjs,
i rocked him for 2 minutes and layed him down.

He cried less than one minute.
But then he was up an hour later.
Instead of rescuing him, I reassured him.
And he went back to sleep on his own.

It is 10:00 and this apartment is silent
except for the clanking of the keys as I type this.

Motherhood can be oh, so hard sometimes.
I feel like I don't have a clue what I am doing.
I just don't feel like I am good enough for Rowan.
"Mom guilt" haunts me.

Anyways, I better get to bed.
Who knows when he will be up again.
My beautiful baby boy who i am crazily in love with.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Saturday, October 17, 2009

homemade hot chocolate!

There is a cool crispness in the air this morning!
It is beautiful and I love it!
Just got a text from Alan that he killed a deer!
That's good for two reasons...
it's opening day of rifle season, and
that means he is one less away from his limit.
Meaning the quicker he kills his limit the less
he is gone from this house.
Oh to be married to a deer hunter!

what I am looking forward to today...
A big mug full of homemade hot chocolate.
A girl from work made the mix and gave it out
at Christmas last year.
It is absolutely the best hot chocolate I have
ever sipped!


Rich & Creamy Cocoa Mix

¾ cup powdered nondairy creamer
½ cup nonfat dry milk powder
½ cup of milk chocolate chips
¼ cup granulated sugar
¼ cup packed brown sugar
3 tbsp. unsweetened cocoa powder
1/8 teas.salt

Combine all ingredients in a bowl, mix well.
Place in 1 pint food storage jar with tight fitting lid.
Lightly pack down.

Here are the directions for the gift tags...

1 jar of Rich & Creamy Cocoa mix
6 cups of boiling water
Place cocoa mix in medium saucepan.
Add water, stiruntil mix and chocolate chips are melted.
Makes 8 servings

Now off to make a big breakfast and enjoy
time with my sister, my nephews, and
this precious little boy!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

my thoughts for you, sweet boy!

my precious boy.

i want to memorize your face.

each crinkle.

and wrinkle.

the way your eyes dance when you smile.

your coos.

your giggles.

your precious hands.

precious feet.

your quirky ears.

beautiful lips.

the cries.

the tears.

i never want to forget.

your smell.

your soft skin.

the hilarious little faces you make.

i could stare at you forever.

hold you in my arms.

dreaming big dreams for you.

help me always remember.

having him...

makes life so much more fun!

I am not much on Halloween, but having
Rowan has made me more excited about it!
He has 4 halloween outfits that we bought
last year before we even knew he was on the way!
Not to mention the cutest costume
that I bought at none other than Walmart in August!
Two weeks after Halloween last year we found out
I was we all know what that means! :)

For Aunt Maggie in San Diego!

We love you and miss you lots!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009