in the house.
but not in my mind.
both boys are asleep.
i will join them soon.
just sitting here for a minute...
listening to the music on my blog.
i stand amazed...
there is none like you...
and tell me I am your own...
so what i needed to hear.
Tonight Rowan fell asleep in my arms.
Those are the moments I just cherish.
I want to freeze time.
Every night before I put Rowan in his crib...
I take him to wherever Alan is so Alan can kiss him
Tonight Alan kissed Rowan.
Then he kissed me.
And said "Thank you for being such a good momma".
Gosh, I love that man.
Even though I hardly feel like one.
During January, I got some things straight.
I needed to ask and seek forgiveness from some people.
And I did.
The replies offered peace and relief except for one...
And it left me filled with questions.
But I did what God wanted me to do.
Life is a balancing act.
I knew it was before I had Rowan...
but that was a joke compared to now.
Some people never cease to amaze me.
In February, I am working on overcoming some insecurities I have.
I am trusting that God has something big in store for our family.
As He has us in a holding pattern.
Trying to rest in Him.
Trying to trust in Him.
Trying to be content.
Will I ever get it?
Rowan is the greatest joy.
The smiles, the laughter, his sweet face, and curious gestures.
He is so inquisitive.
Still can't believe he is ours.
I take life so for granted.
I spend way too much time comparing myself to others.
Why can I not be satisfied?
Why do I constantly ask myself this?
Guess it goes back to trying to be content...
I wish I had more time for blogging...
but lately it is not a priority.
I have even thought about stopping it altogether.
And I am seriously considering deleting my Facebook.
Gotta get back to the basics...
Ok, enough rambling...gotta go to bed...